I hate my father,i hate this freaking house.
Yeah,called me anything you want.I dont freaking care.I hate everything around me.I just hate my father who is being,so narrow minded.The electric bill is 400 this month.And my paremts keep blaming at me.Is there no people who used electric other than me in this house?I mean,i know i used internet a lot.But dont just blaming at me.I just cried a few minutes ago.Why can't i have a father just like Aida's?Or a father that always accepted wht i want him to accepted.I know,i'm not like the lovey dovey type like my younger brother,but please treat me like them.I'm treated just like abandoned children.I just fucking hate this.
Fucking,fucking,fucking.Electric bill cannot afford to pay,dont even wish they will send me to Yamaha Music.Eventhough,how many fucking year i waited.I just only can see the music school from far.I really envy with those girl at the same age as mine that can get wht they want.They can do wht they want,they can used their parents many to go shopping,they can cosplaying and their parents wouldnt care eventhough they wear skirts,they can go to the music school and learn many things,and people called them talented.Wht talent is anyway?Humans borned in the same way,they dont have nature talent or whtever isn it?I mean there is,based on their genes.But,if we make effort on wht we want,we can get wht we wished.When there's a will,there's a way.Everyone said that i have talent ,but they dont know how hard i trained my finger and how i suffered from all those pain.Thts not talent,it's just something that we put effort and we can do it spontaneously.
And singing too,i would like my voice to be so heavenly.But,i cant cuz i born this way.Unless i have a vocal teacher.But it's all about money,i'm talking about.My family cant even afford electric bills and my sister's college.They dont even want to look wht i want ,nor even grant it.It's just fucking hopeless.
Btw,i got taekwando today.And i saw a lot of kakkoi looking guy.There is 2 coaches that i think so good looking.One is teaching me,omg.haha,he did touched my hand.But i think he's married,i mean he looks like a pak cik to me because wellhis bodylaa,a lil bit of fat.Haha.The another one is canadian,i think.Well,of course handsome in many way.But he teach the colour belt.And,and there is one guy that came late,he is same belt as me,well i think he is a basketball guy.Akma told me.Ok topic closed.I've got exam for taekwando for changing belt,but in April kot.And the girl that i called freak,she did talked to me.She was so talkative,i dont even have anything to reply her.Do i look like her sister for god sake??!!!!Okay,i did met ustaz Wahid,and dang he found me tudungless .But he didnt care much i think,and he asked me wether that girl and i are siblings.OMG!!i'm not like her!!!Shitty shit.
I spended my day watching Boys Befoore Flower.And falling in love continously with Ji Hoo.Dang!he's too gorgeous in many way.Saranghaeyo,oppa!
Singing out.
