I'm in KJ right now.I desperately want to meet my friend,but they cant for some reason.I tried to call Aida,but she's nowhere.I find other inisiative to meet my friend here before i went back at 2 pm today,and it's 12 pm right now.I called Aini asking her to meet me at the wireless cafe,just asking,but again she can't.I tried to called Aidil instead,nobody answer.Haaish,am i that lonely?
I argue with my mother for countless time now.I'm so damned frustrated until i locked myself in my bedroom for a night.My mom's being unfair with my little damned brother,and i'm still not owned my internet yet.I've waited like 2 fuckin months and she said,there's credit card hanged or whatever financial problem.But she still buying new handphones.I want to stay here longer,buy my father nowadays have been pretty busy.Nobody notices what i want.Am i invicible?
Who am i to talk to?I cant contact Aida,because i cant talk longer because my mom scolded me for the bill and the broadband cant work because the coverage there.I'm like living in a thick jungle,cant contact anyone,no coverage.I'm so freaking lonely that i cried countless time.
My test went pretty messed up.There's cheating everywhere,and i felt kinda unfair with that.But they still asked me the answer as if i'm the smartest kid in the world.Okay whatever,as long as i get an A for English.
Sometimes i fake a smile at school,i do make some friends,but i think they are well fake?I tried to storied my problem in my life,and they get bored and change topic.I think they dont understand what my heart going through.And i for a sudden being a girl with few words lately.I kept my problem my loeneliness and my rebellious deep inside of my heart.Because nobody understand me.And for 7 hours of school a day,i went my day pretty dull,grey and bored.A day after another.What a life i'm leading.
I'm not like them,they willing to go along with their life under a rock.They used to follow their boat of life.But me,i have this rebellious heart,i want freedom,i dont want to tie myself up with rules and harsh of reality
Someone,please give me air to breathe.
