Like a needle in my throat,i couldnt even swallow things,this tonsel really kill me and it never healed how much i eat medicine.
I rarely get a high fever,up until now.And for a sudden high fever attack me comes with a great tonsel.I'm getting even paler,less eat,less weight.I still off for school tomorrow,there's 2 person got h1n1 at my school anyway.
School's getting boring,i thought high school are fun with friends and crushes.It's far from my expectation after i got move.High school has becoming hell for me.And somehow,memories in my old school are haunting me .I cant even smile whole heartedly now,even i smile it never reach my eyes.Everything i do seems so fake.
eventhough i want to say what my heart feel like,i can just smile hypocritely and throw the thoughts deep down in my heart.Yeah,i fake a lot.
After i go home after school,i straightly go to my room and lay in the bed,staring at the ceiling and sigh continuously.And wondered to myself,am i worth to live?.I dont know how to answer that how much i asked to myself.