Bag thrown away,i lay helplessly after another fake day,
I felt even more helpless when my mom said in the car back then,that my form teacher and my sivik teacher is actually telling my condition in class,and what makes it worse,they tell my mother that i didnt have any expression,same that numb expression eventhough the class laugh over something,i still wear that mask expression.And i just said to my mother fakely,"i'm okay",eventhough i'm completely not.
I wonder to myself,how long can i endure this kind of fakeness?Until this long 2 years?
I'm completely tired though it's just for 2 months.
And that person,i dont hate her,but everytime i see her,my heart ache.She got everything i want to be.
From every aspect,she got everything.But who am i?I'm just a girl who stuck in this ridiculous place.
And for the first time,i just said to myself i hate being a teacher's and an army's daughter.Though my parents i are not to be blame,but i just said it to myself silently.Huuh,it's just too unfair to myself.
One of my classmate who happens to brought my DVD to return back to me,got caught by the prefects,and I was furious.My Gokusen just lost.Great.
