My birthday is coming ,like 3 days more and i'm totally didnt feel anything,cuz it might be boring.But Aida seems to planned something,but i really hope it will becoming interesting .I just dont want to hope from my family,they didnt even know the date i'm born,even my mother.Sometimes i'm just fucked up with that fact and actually that day i must to return to that hellish place one more time.I just hate living there.
My day in this 1 week holiday is a total boring,i wake up,i eat,i sleep,i'm interneting,i've been lectured all day by my mom because i sleep whole day,and i run into my fantasy again;reading manga/watching anime.
I dont have a thing to talk about my life,can i just craping with what i thought?
Ok here goes,I was like everyday i turn the mangafox and then i just run into my fantasy world again.Eventhough i hate reading shoujo or love story,i dont know why i read them anyway.I hate to see why those boys like so bishies and so perfect in my eye didnt existed in the real world,and i hate to see girls like me that is not attractive at all out of nowhere been loved from someone that is so perfect.Why shouldnt real world be like that?I,sometimes eager to someone treats me i'm special,eventhough i'm totally not.And i'm eager that someone totally make me feel that i'm really existed.
I once have imagine that one day,i close my eye and when i opened back,my reality turns what i dreamt.
But it'll never will happen , fairytales isnt existed anyway.
I once again,dreamt to be like her.
