I finally seen the world after a week being a hikikimori,with my lenses,a long sleeve hoody,a jeans,a sneaker,and my lucky charm necklace that has a K wood's carve.Step onto the simen ground,flared my nostrils to breathe the fresh morning air,and smiling over myself to the sunlight that shone over my hair.
heading toward's old friend's place that have lost contact almost 1 year.Ackwardness and silenceness surround myself as if this person is a stranger to me who i found in the middle of a streets,i must don't have a face because for a sudden shamelessly asked to go together.I hope she didnt mind my ignorance.
These faces i'm meeting that have registered in my crowded brain since i was primary school.I'm just a bit lost in this social gathering,with aida's absentness,she's like my lucky charm that strenghten my confidence.And of course those taking picture time is a must.I just look pale and colorless in my picture ,and if i smile hard these fluffy cheeks will risen up like a chubby-kid smiling furiously over a Bigmac.
We talk a lot and gossip haha.she still her old self not a bit change though i did think she change a bit but my thoughts have made a false conclusion.She tells other's life,that leading a luxurious and easy life,they didnt do anything really just borned into a rich mom's womb,and demand so much.I just silently envy having whatever they want with just a blink of an eye,still they argue with their parents though eventhough their parents poured so much love into them.Just imagine you were in my shoes,parents didnt actually care,sweating and crave for the thing i want,friendless in my life and having people's acceptance.There's more ahead.
This person,confessing her life that bothering her,felt like she should end it.Seeing her eyes like i've just seen a clear glasses,i understand her,felt like i was in her shoe.Life is not a bed of roses,my dear.Sadness and trouble may locked our soul,feeling as if we're not leading this so called life.I wish to make the sad faces lits with colours and a bright emotion on it.Stay your faith,no matter how hard this journey is,no matter what obstacle are facing us like a big stone rolling just inches of us.Be strong.
