Saturday, July 24, 2010

Collapse

collapse,collapse.I don't know how to keep me awake in this tiresome school days.I collapse after i arrived home and found myself waking up at 3 am with i'm-not studying-anything- and -felt -scared- because -trial -is -near kind of feeling.Even my stomach did not filled with anything that makes it growl so badly.

Mama is busy with all the moving form,changing school form whatsortever and i felt she dont feel a single bit worried about my PMR like she used to worried when my upper siblings had.Frankly,i need her worriedness and forcefulness to keep me alarmed to study.I need the urge.

I fucking pissed of with some people actually,who makes their ego and selfishness their priorities.
How can i accept people who can't accept me?and i'm kind of shocked with some boys here that straightly disturbed the sensitive issues of women.I accept that naive opinion,it's true somehow.But he's not exposed in outside world yet,he didnt know anything.And why give the stereotypes label on me?Indespicably naive and shallow.But hmm,i only can express my thoughts of them here or inside my box of mind.But sometimes,people are just judgemental , i cant stop that somehow.