The rain is pouring all night ,I'm being sleepless again . My eyes just can't handle the fear anymore if I shut them out . Mama had cut all ties of hopes on me ,sternly did not insisted me taking the results just to save our faces and put her best "don't care " attitude . I thought I'm pleased with her reactions , but it indeed hurting my pride as a daughter .I felt like i'm just a spare parts in these family , like a broken doll that did not put on use anymore.
I confided myself I'm going to be okay with laughters and jumping all alone . At least that will make me feel ease , perhaps ....
