And she swears that the moon don't hang quiet as high as it used to .

I'll try to learn from my failure ,mistakes ,imperfection , incompetent . I swear I will regained back my dignity that slowly bleaches because of my natural inhabitant's habit that is procastination on my studies . I shall put all the blame on myself for being such ignorance . I am currently in the lowest degree of failure.
I don't know why I'm being in sciencestream in the first place.

I remember when I picked up the guitar, my eyes sparked with admiration .The thing in my hand is like magics. It was bringing out it's soul and was like interconnected with my soul.

And then , I started to plant some dreams and hopes in my self .Silently crying wanted so bad to be on stage ,singing with my uttermost passion.But then ,I realize I was running in the same place.

Fck off seriously , music may not be important to you ,but it's like oxygen to me.

... and money is just a freaking paper . You adults work like ants.

If if if if if

People changes .

I felt somewhat I'm left behind a thousand miles , a thousand steps . Washed in bewildered sea of people ,blinding lights. But then , gravity still holds me ,my feet on the earth crust as my dull emotions twitched with uncertainty.

What was it again that I'm running for ? that I'm chasing for?

Rather than a cheap love ,I rather go around embracing loneliness that perhaps really loves me.

Or a scarlet letter that will make my pride stands in a high height.

I have no idea.If only I could paint my future with a canvas and pastel colours.

Deep down inside , i'm actually really lonely.