Cursing seems to be like a therapy.It heals my furyness and anger management pretty well.Exams was devastating. I have lost count of paper I destructed. If this is how love concreted my mind with agony , I'll choose unloved instead.I never wanted pain leads me after a long hour of sleep , it's just out of my definitions.There was no vacancy to the pain , I never allowed such thing to make me weak. It's uninvited and conjure. Ego is what I'll lead in my perspective of love now , I'll rather be sadistic than being hurt.Well precisely he just killed my old self that believes a love like Twilight-pile-of shits existed

I want to do music , but can't find the right person to collaborate.Starting alone is fine I guess,first thing first I need to fine a tuner and a nice camera with superb audio. It's not like I have money , but I'll try.

I nearly choked to death seeing this blog almost removed.Thank god, no.I have been slaving my creativity just to squezee some idea to write.I really have no idea now because I just got up from sleep and felt like a major crap. And yes, my expression did not tell me what the fuck I'm feeling.I felt worse.What people are you.