Unattainable.Maybe you are just an illustration that wandering in some 16 years old boy.Fuck you.I swear I'll never fall in love again.

My ear is almost plugged with distortion music and adrenaline tunes every second in my life now.Violencing every fragile feelings that kept me weak.Using destructive language just to loosen the grips in my head. The question is , until when do I have to suppressed this impulsive unecessary rebellious feelings? I declined every urges to keep me think about my future, my whole life in the futuristics. Getting absolutely in stabilized condition eventhough I failed to handle my studies.Not even bother to feed the understandings of the hard knowledge in my head. Only desires and peer pressure that lose the fuck out of me. I cannot wait for the good fate from the sky to cling over to me out of nowhere, do I?

I have nothing to say hahahahahahahahahahahaahahaha , fake laugh seems to confide me to move on

I'm a rebel or maybe it's just that I hold on to my principal too much. I just want to be independant to my decision thats all.

Negativity brings me nowhere actually. But really I don't know what to figure out now . People says I need to sketch my future in this kind of age. Really? where all the uncertainty leads? Maybe later *yawn My vocabulary is drying ,It's just make my style of writing dulls.Toodles