I have tendencies to write , write and write again. Letting out my aching needs to rant again.These are the nightmares I had

 I was chased by a  monster squid , its spite was made from hell and it licked everybody to death. I was hollowed out by fears to fit every cold nerves in my body. Everybody was held aloft , the earth was a running track.The bodies was stowed , far below. And the twilight creep and it all ends.

There are conflicts between friendship clashing into personal preferences and whatnot love puppies and trustworthy. I don't see why my commitments and efforts are rejected after all this years of me being a good friend accompanying her weeping over a love conflict or something. Your ego must cost a fortune that you cannot take a sincere sorry lol. I don't want to be a slave for your slavery of your own egos and self-righteous.

I have nothing to grasp lately , I don't even have hopes in my own future , my grades crumbled like papers I dont even have any motivation to do anything other than to be alive experiencing new thing. Confusions never stop.

Last year of school. Lets roll~

Oh ok.

fuck.

I have not blogged for century . Maybe my laziness level worsen day by day.

I have been hanging out in my house watching movie while I let my laziness eat me. I don't think I have any motivations eventhough clearly SPM is obviously this year.I tried to search ,search  anything that will lured me into some kind of excitements but I don't think any excitements would come in the form of moneyless and limitless or such. My tendecy to just grown up and leave high school is becoming sooo strong. But I don't think facing the big world without credits in spm or diploma or degree will be a bed of roses. Suddenly future scares the shit out of me.

Foster The People.

I  have the bestest night in my life.The energy is exhilarating and the music vibes just run in my blood that time it's literally like ecstasy.Spending money is obviously not a waste it's like a form of buying experiences.I'm gonna experiences lots of gigs and concerts after this while I still have young blood running through my veins.