Once again,bloggers.
My situation now is totally blank.My life now is totally lifeless.I mean,i sleep and i eat and i sleep again and i online,and i anime-ing and so on repeating all this stuff.I want something new,something challenging.But all i can see is the repeated dull life.Yeah,same goes if i go to school.Totally damn boring.To think of it,i see everyone have boyfriends,i mean i dont feel that kind of feeling.And that doesnt mean i want.I mean is whats the point if they couple but has no true love inside it.They are just want to show off how fashionable or good looking the boyfriend is to the people.I'm not trying to jiwang or whtever.But,why?there's no point.And why those people want so much attention?Why these people always care about their image?And why those people dont have any--Ahh!forget about it.But i seriously dont get with them.Especially people on myspace.They have aching my eyes nowadays.
And me?Everyday and every single time,i was been tortured.My parents nagging about problems and house and and many other adult problem.And also nagging at me for being lifeless.
What do you expect?I dont have nothing to do with these bloody-hell holiday.My father is busy with work.And my mother always cuddly-cuddly-ing wafi and busy with her decoration and also busy naggig at me.Kaktin is busy with her medic college and sometimes swept me from my room which is her room too to study.Yat busy with her xbox and playing with her stupid cousin himself.Whaddya expect?And me ;everyday open myspace eventhough i didnt like and lmost vomited from seeing the sickening people in it.And drooled over bishonens who is more handsome than the goat-face guy who's perasan that he's hot in myspace.Huuuuu~reality reality.Eat shit and die ok,for the guy i mentioned before.
I've watched Nodame Cantabile the drama version.Afterall,i want it so much to enter music school myself.I've requested from mama,and mama raised her voice saying that's work is not gonna pay my living expenses when i grow up.And she says its only gonna waste time and asked me to study until finish high school.I mean that is my only dream and only what i'm capable of.Science and mathematics?i'm just sucks at it.No ones understand me,no one and no one.
;sigh.
And yeah im listening to the honey and clover to soothing my mad mind right now.
Reality is really harsh nee,Raito-kun?(nevr mind me;i''m fatasizing again)
Animefreak :3,
Icha Yoshioka.
