I'm crying right now.I really am.My tears cant stop pouring down like crazy.I think exams make me feel like that.I dont study for Science tomorrow yet,i dont know i just dont know.Many unhappy things happened and i'm at my extreme point of inferiority complex.My grandma is in coma right now.Her illness is getting worse.Whenever i need mama,she's not in house.Each time i woke up,and each time i go and coming back from school she's nowhere to be seen.I think i maybe failed for Science tomorrow.I'm just suck at it.I sleep ,unrealizing maybe tiredness affect me,and all the tension i got.That cause me crying for a countless time today.I need someone to talk to somewhow,Aida is the superwoman .But somehow,i can't disturb her,she's on exam and in fact she's studying hard right now.
Now wht?I'm not study anything for Science that have 4 chapters though it's already 12 am.And the paper is tomorrow.Sometimes i just want to shout for the fact it is.Nobody's home,my mother spent all day in hospital.I felt really really stress and lonely.I hate this.My eyes have already swollen.I dont even know why i cry that much.I dont even accept the fact tht i was such a cry baby.
I called mama like and i was crying that i'm afraid of exams tomorrow,and i dont know wht to start or wht to study and i'm clueless.And with her calm voice,she just said that she'll not getting mad even i failed.She just asked me to the test and and thts all.But somehow,the words is not easy as she speaks.Because,i have once when i was 10,i cant do the mathematic test at all and i'm actually cried at the very same time when i do the test.I'm afraid that i'm going to be like that for tommorrow.I'm unexpected.
My head,my mind are so flustered right now.I felt like i wnt t0 die now.
Khairunnisa.
