I just arrive back from Kelantan,have cleaning myself and i'm ready to tell my bitter experience i had in my whole life,
27 MAY 2009
The date i can't surely forget in my whole life.I havent felt this tragic feeling since my UPSR result.My grandma is surely gone forever.Eventhough i cant accept it,but what can i do?It's God will.She was actually sleep with me in the same room i sat here.But yeah,i'm feeling really sad because she's living with me almost 1 and a half year.And i always accompany herwhenever she felt lonely.
It started when it was 8.15 ,my maid woke me up panicly and said she was already dead,and i was like so suprised and woke up shockingly.Hve to wait until my cousin pick me up to Masjid Tabung Haji to shower her body.I enter the room where her body had to shower,and i was like suprised seeing her calm,sleeping face.But her face was little yellow because of her illness,and i was eventually i cried,i cannot accept that she's dead and i cannot accept the fact that i eventually seeing her corpse.I waited the showering session with my mixed up emotion until it was over.I want to shower her actually,but my mom wouldnt let me.I was kinda dissapointed with that.And then all the relative was asked to kissed her.Everybody kissed her and first time in my life,i cried with so much sadness.And my relatives,even the boys weeping for her death.Her bodies have been bought by the jenazah van and my car following the van to Kelantan;her hometown and her bodies was safely in her grave right now.May her soul be in The Paradise.
Exams,i dont want to talk about that,I dont take many papers.And i'm very very not doing well in that.I dont even have time for myself.I dont even have time to say goodbye to my friends.I'm so sorry,i dont even want for this to happen.Hmmm,i wanted to meet my friends so bad but i dont have time.I will be busy for this whole holiday.And i'm not ready for my moving.I dont want really.But what can i do?My life totally messed up lately.The person i loved is already gone,i'm leaving my friends,i have to face those stranger i dont even know in the new school.This all happen too fast,dont even realizing me.I just have to continue my unfaithful
life.
Aida,thnx for being my super-duper best friend in my entire life!
2J,thnx for memories.
Aini,thnx for being there when i need you
Aidil,thnx for your support
MCSH,thnx for making me obsess and gone crazy for you
:D.
Khairunnisa.
