yeaa,i'm a bad reputation

So my marks got on my old school,and tadaa , everyones there now how bad the marks flew down after i started to move here.So i have been chopped as the bad reputation because the greatest student of 3RK got D on Math on Trial which in SP ,the teachers wont make a big deal out of it at all.So the question is,why bring my name up eventhough I am done with that school and already became a history?I had hard time accepting reality knowing my marks,why added the spice?

Yeah,i don't know why my marks flew down like that,I used not to get even a C .But D?who am i joking with?maybe because i move and bla bla bla,the teachers are different.I am not already as good as old times.My focus are extremely distracted,and that i didnt even know why.I felt somewhat hopeless knowing it's only 40 days til PMR ,and i didnt even do anything yet.

And of course,if i didnt get what they want,they will see me with the eyes of "owh,she's not that good" look when the results come in my old school.

Past life still haunts me indeed.I'm somewhat paranoid with the people who expecting too much of me.