Oreo!

So today i woke up realized mama have been busy packing things,and i ackwardly go downstair with messy surroundings.Hmmm,go to meet Aida at the park and ended up sleepover at her house.Ok,her request so i've got to fullfill ,so i'm currently at her house right now.Her sister making a pizza!XD,so delicious!And i did make a cover for the first time.I guess i post later.Sorry for my unperfect voice and guitar skill that i need to improve :D.Izzat called me,and we chat a bit.I just realized this is my last day in this city.And for those who know me,i just wanna say
Thanks for the memories !<3

Khairunnisa.

goodbye song.

I just learned to play Goodbye To You song by Michelle Branch,i really wanted to play in front of my friend that support me all this while.I think i will be making videos for them,if i can because right now my camera is ---- , you know what i mean right.Haha.Today i will go out ,actually i'm not that interested but i've got nothing to do actually.Hmm,the song describe me right now.I'm so not in the position of ready to continue my journey of life.Argghh,reality really kills me.My parents gone to Melaka to settled all the business there.I didnt knew mama have already signed the quitting school letter.I think,it's already 100% confirm i'm moving.



Got to go.
Khairunnisa.

I don't hate you anymore for the way you remind me of the person I cannot be

Sometimes i just want to be someone else and envy with those luxurious life that other people belonged to.Those people buy a dream with money.But me,i'm just accompany by my sweat to achieve my goals and dream.I wanted to help people instead by just to be a listener.

"Oh,stop dreaming!"*knock herself *

The End.I'm just fu*cking bored right now.

Khairunnisa.

school holidays--wohoo!

Ok,so today was 1 Jun,i think Aini's b'day is in this month.I think on 16.I better get her a present before i totally go to Melaka.I sleep at 5 last night,chatting with Aida whole night.Haha,really.So today is fourt day of my grandma's death.This house really reminded of her a lot.I cried again when i was praying.I know,i'm so emotional.

I read this manga called Gakuen Ouji and woaahhh.Girls raping boys?That is so abnormal.But the story is pretty interesting.But i have to wait the update like forever and end up not continuing at all.This is the series that i postpone:-

cat street
faster than a kiss
my barbaric girlfriend
goong
kaikan phrase
love celeb
ai wo utau *something*something*

for the drama/anime:-
goong s
ghost friend
K-on!
Bleach
Rosario Vampire(i buy the DVD but i dont want to watch it anymore)

Hell a lot right?I dont even know wether i wnt to continue those or not.
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another bishonen from shinjo mayu !><

Khairunnisa.

mixed up emotion.

I just arrive back from Kelantan,have cleaning myself and i'm ready to tell my bitter experience i had in my whole life,

27 MAY 2009
The date i can't surely forget in my whole life.I havent felt this tragic feeling since my UPSR result.My grandma is surely gone forever.Eventhough i cant accept it,but what can i do?It's God will.She was actually sleep with me in the same room i sat here.But yeah,i'm feeling really sad because she's living with me almost 1 and a half year.And i always accompany herwhenever she felt lonely.

It started when it was 8.15 ,my maid woke me up panicly and said she was already dead,and i was like so suprised and woke up shockingly.Hve to wait until my cousin pick me up to Masjid Tabung Haji to shower her body.I enter the room where her body had to shower,and i was like suprised seeing her calm,sleeping face.But her face was little yellow because of her illness,and i was eventually i cried,i cannot accept that she's dead and i cannot accept the fact that i eventually seeing her corpse.I waited the showering session with my mixed up emotion until it was over.I want to shower her actually,but my mom wouldnt let me.I was kinda dissapointed with that.And then all the relative was asked to kissed her.Everybody kissed her and first time in my life,i cried with so much sadness.And my relatives,even the boys weeping for her death.Her bodies have been bought by the jenazah van and my car following the van to Kelantan;her hometown and her bodies was safely in her grave right now.May her soul be in The Paradise.

Exams,i dont want to talk about that,I dont take many papers.And i'm very very not doing well in that.I dont even have time for myself.I dont even have time to say goodbye to my friends.I'm so sorry,i dont even want for this to happen.Hmmm,i wanted to meet my friends so bad but i dont have time.I will be busy for this whole holiday.And i'm not ready for my moving.I dont want really.But what can i do?My life totally messed up lately.The person i loved is already gone,i'm leaving my friends,i have to face those stranger i dont even know in the new school.This all happen too fast,dont even realizing me.I just have to continue my unfaithful
life.

Aida,thnx for being my super-duper best friend in my entire life!
2J,thnx for memories.
Aini,thnx for being there when i need you
Aidil,thnx for your support
MCSH,thnx for making me obsess and gone crazy for you


:D.

Khairunnisa.

i dont want to go up there and pretend i'm okay

I just finish from 1 hour chatting with Aida and my internet friend guy.He asked me to hear Blue sand song that addict me.I can understand your feeling very well :) .Somehow,your life are match with my life and we have to stuck from the harshness of reality.

So i'm still on exam.My grandma's illness is becoming even worst and she might not live long anymore,and Mama still on sober.And at the same time,she doesnt really much gave attention to me,and even worst i didnt do well on exam ,i cant concentrate at all.And here i am ,stuck in front of PC.Saying rubbish at my own blog.I dont know how to describe my feeling anymore.

People around me saying things like"I will gonna be miss you","Are you moving?!".I can see fakeness in them.I dont see any difference wether i'm moving or not.Since they got in high school,they totally forgot me and when they knew the news that i will be moving,the pretending to be pitiful at me.Why did they even bother?
-even a book of memory will turn into dusk.

Exam are getting pretty sucks to me.I dont know if i pass or not,i dont bother to get A's nowadays,because i wouldnt get even how much hard work i put in.Haaishh.I more spend times with my only chocolate-black coloured guitar.Ahhh,sometimes i can't stand being in my room,cuz it reminds me of my grandma,her baby poder face,her hairbrush,her lotion,her clothe.Everything,haunting me.Eventhough she live with me for just 1 and half a year,but still it reminds me of her a lot.

Shenn huan,i dont see him for a while now.I think it's almost second week since i dont get to see him.After all,it all turns to unrequited love.Haaih,i dont know.Maybe i'm too unlucky with love.

I just cant believe i still got 4 days left in my-not-reach-2-years' school.I dont know about the teacher's day performance.Impossible i can do with in front of so many crowds.And with my unconfident feeling,i decided not to do for the sake of myself.Cuz it only brought shame to me.
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Khairunnisa.

Gee gee gee ,baby baby .

I'm impress by this talented people -:







That's all for today.I decide that i dont wnt to review about my life,cuz it's too misery.Maybe later.

Khairunnisa.