Happy new year and Happy birthday mama.Sorry,i didnt give you a present.Maybe later because i'm broke.Goomeenn.
Its already 2009 eh?Time passes by so quickly even i dont know until i saw everyone so noisy at bulletin and status.They kinda annoyed me sometimes;no always.I tried to delete my myspace this year,but i'll think about it.Because i cant leave moon chul behind,lol.Yeah,i got a new crush that makes me screaaammm.But he is not and idol just a vocalist for underground band.I'm going to put his bestest picture in here.He really looks a bit like yagami raito and i guess he is better than usual actor who acted in the live action.Well,yeaah i think i have said at previous post that the reason i like him.Check them out;i'm lazy to re-write it.Sorry,for my lazyness.And i see other bitchy girl that get in the way comment to moon chul that 'you are so cute,you are so handsome'.Eeergh.Please stop.He is mine.
He cut his bang in this picture.Awww~why my dear moon chul?You look cute with the bang,though.Haaiish.
He's with glasses.Aaarghh~i'm going to faint.
This picture really look like Kira@Yagami Raito.He should be cosplaying for kira.I like this picture.
Hmmm,that's all i think.I didnt know what my target for this year.I think maybe i will put effort to enter the top 10 in class.Ganbatte!.And yeah trying to improving my guitar skill eventhough i dont have time.And increasing my number of manga to 200 and not to forget to collect many anime collection.Shen huan and lee yong lok are going to from 3 in morning session .I cannot get to see them.Form 1?there's impossible for a chinese guy who looks like this guy up there to exist.Blaa blaa blaa.And sorry for my gedikness,i will be like this if see hot boys.
Sorry because i didnt updated for so long.Tomorrow is starting a new year.And know i've got nothing to do besides doing this.
Past few days,i go to Langkawi.It was so tiresome.We arrive to Kuala Lipis and get a ferry to Pulau Langkawi.And in the night,we've got no hotel because it's packed with people eventhough abah already book the hotel.But it has some techical problem.So,we sleep at abah's friend house.And the next day we go to Makam Mahsuri and go to some shop to buy mama's kitchen thing and buy chocolate.And i have buy some anime t shirt.Yeay!.It was L's chibi version.Kawaii!But its a bit big because it's men size.But owh well.
Today,Amin[my cousin] came to my house to sleep for a night.And since he is expert at guitar/music so he thought me how to practice lead style.And we also play duet where he play solo and i play the guitar and sing estrella-stay song.I hope that my skill are increasing and i can perform for real in future.And my manga is increasing to 152 and my almari cant hold them anymore.I wanted to buy another almari but my room doesnt has space since i'm sharing with my sister.What am i going to when its increasing until 300?
And yeah,aida told me that this band called 'Royal Pirates'are remaking the nobody and mirotic song.And i fell for them especially the vocalist ;moon chul.He is soo my type,because he is so talented in both guitar and piano and also singing.I just love a guy ho has a sense of musician since i'm a music addicter.and yeah he is super cute and he is korean but living in California.I post some photo of him and the band later.
And also,this girl that i and aida hate her very much is getting annoying day per day.She is even doing the thing wht she told everyone is wrong.And she is even say how talented she is.Want to seek attention much?
Today was not much,i will talk about yesterday.I felt very bad and ackward.
Case one;the guy that admirer me asked my phone number.I put my new poems in my profile and he says he want to know me 'deeply' because he think i'm different..?He seems nice though,and he doesnt seem like typical malay guy.But i'm doubting,if i gave him my number;he will harrased me.Internet is dangerous nowadays.So,i decline him saying that i rarely used my phone and i'm not used to talk with boys.Its true though.But i talk a bit with my classmate of course.But though his speeches of course just like common malay boy.I'm not being racist but yeah i dont really like it.But i dont mind if he wants to know me well.But i only allowed in myspace or email only.I cannot trust people easily.This is ackward cuz this is my first time someone really read my un-understandable poems.Wll,if people read my poems;they will what the heck she's saying.But this guy,he says he wants to search meaning from my poems that he wants my no phone.What am i supposed to do?But at the same time,i felt gld that someone really feel deeply in my poems.But of course,i dont have feeling for him.
Case two;I paste poster that i brought at comic fiesta at wall besides my bed,and kaktin suddenly mad about it.She asked me to throw it.She doesnt have power to do so!It's my room too,i have my right to do it.Besids,i'm not paste it at her sides.I'm paste it at my side.So,what's the problem??!!!She says that her eyes are hurtinng when she saw all these anime poster,and she cant seem to study well.It doesnt make senses.The poster not disturbing her life.She can just ignore it.Stupid fucking sister.I do what i want.It's my room too.It doesnt mean that your my sister that yu can command me anytime.I fought with her yesterday.I just fight for my right.I'm not doing criminal by pasting anime poster.Mama said that its not bad because 'malaikat tak masuk', it doent have to do with it.I'm just paste it because i like it,not worship.All this sickening people at my house.I'm getting sick of it.And yet,my sister are going to 'menyemak' at my house for 5 years more./and my life will be ruined by not having my own room for this 5 years.
I felt relieved for some reason if i confess in my blog.Today,i'm almost choking because i drink my medicine which larut in water.And i seems to felt that it have 100% has been larut,but the medicine doent not to be like i've seen and i drink it fast because it taste awful and i'm choking.i cry because my throat felt so pain and i quickly get some water.Mama shouting shouting 'drink the water'.And luckly,i'm alright.I thought i'm going to get surgery because the meicine almost stuck at my throat.But fiuh,what a tragic.
Tomorrow;i will go Malacca for two days and the next friday i will go Langkawi.And yeah,sorry because it's too long.I'm seem to be so talkative today.And yeah,i scroll at youtube and then i found this.YUI-Tokyo live at Budokan.And i see that,she really put her soul in the song that she almost cry and made the fan cry too.Wow!that's very..artistic.Bcause there's no such artist that put their soul so much until they almost cry and made the fan cry too. Ohh gosh,i almost cry also. I resepect her so much how she create her music that everyone can feel it.That's the great example of artist and music.
Well then,i will not online until the next week maybe.So yeah,enjoy your day.
I already a write a lot right now,but it has unmistakenly deleted for some reason.Haishh,baka punya blog.Ok,i'm gonna write it all back about yesterday ^^.
Yesterday i went Sunway Pyramid wiht Aida and Anis[Aida's older sister],it was soo fun.I thought i cnt go to Comic Fiesta 08 because the entrance is quite expensive,but i do go.But only at the outside of the hall though.But i met a lot of cosplayer.I saw Vampire Knight XD,I saw Kagome,I saw Soul Eater group,Final Fntasy,and Eyeshield 21 which wafi would like,and of course Gothic Lolita.And yeah,Aida catch a glimpse of L but i didnt saw it X(.I brought some Vampire Knight and Bleach Posters.And even manga and Yagami Raito keychain! XD.I wanted to buy Kon,Bleach fluffy toy,but i dont have enough of money .It was quite big so i guess i buy it smaller at Animetech.Ahhh,the cosplayer are so kakkoi and handsome~i'm so excited to see Zero Kiryuu in front of my eyes ~ XDXD.I snp a picture with some character that i dont know,maybe from Final Fantasy.And i even see a guys wearing some neko's[cat] clothe.Kyaaa~~noseblee attack!!i want that cat's ear~!!I would be fun if i enter the hall and go with Dalilah.But owh well,maybe next year.Talk about cosplay,i really wante to do one maybe L?or Akito and Agito.It would be best!But i dont prefer those who wear skirts,because my leg was horrible with many scars because of the creatures that suck my blood.Dammit!And i saw several people who wer Death Note t shirt.I want i want it!!i will be searching at Sungai Wang someday.You'll see!!But i didnt see any of the Death note cosplayer except L.But maybe they go on the first day.And majority of them were chinese.No often malay people rarely know what anime is.Heh!
And oh yeah,Anis was not bad at all,and very nice!Her personality was much much like Aida,so i dont have problem with that.After that we go to window shopping to touch touch the pretty clothes and go.Haha XDXD.Anis and Aida were chasing hot boys.And taking photos of them quitely.And yeah we watched movie called "Angus,Thongs and Perfect Snogging".Whoaa,the stories have many kssing scene eventhough they are like my age,fourteen.But the strories is sweet as the boy starring at that movie was freakingly hot.We went back at 8.30.I will upload some picture after aida upload at her blog so that i can grab them.
So long.Last but not least,i really wanted to cosplay someday.I will put my effort to be one ^^.
I'll tell you what happen when last time i update my blog.
I go to PD again and i cut my hair and i dislike it.
i've caught a cold and right now my cold isnt well 100% yet
i've got ulser in my bottom of my mouth which is killing me right now
That's all.It's not ,much.Today i will go out with Aida only to Sunway.Yes,we only both.I try to invite my other friend but they cannot.And eventually there is anime and comic fiesta today but the entrance is expensive so i cannot go.But owh well,i'll try to buy some fluffy toys at animetech cuz dalilah told me it was cheap.Thanks to mama cuz she gave me 50 ringgit.I cant believe my mom will give me easily,thanks very much mama.Sometimes i dont think my mom are too bad.I'm so weird,my parents keep buying expensive things nowadays.From LCD tv to a new laptop,also xbox guitar electric and scanner.Whoooaaa,i dont know where my parents got money.As abah will 'naik pangkat' as leftenan.Allhamdulilah.
And yes,school are going to start and also nightmare are going to start.I'm turning 14 and hmmm,i dont know what my destination will be in future.Of course,i dont want to be doctor and sepangkat denganya lah.I'm not interested.I just dont know.I know music cant bring living expenses to us.I just dont know.And yeah,the same thing will hapen like this year,and i'm suffer from loneliness.i hope aini and aidil can accompany me at least. Next year,i'm planning to do a cover at youtube.Insyallah.I know my voice didnt reach the good level ,to be shorten it sucks.But i give it a try or at least i will be playing guitar only.Wish me luck.
Talking about anime,Darker than black are going to start this month.Yeay new anime on animax!Yesterday,i called Ili.She become even more otaku!Omedeto!haha,i really am glad that she become the real otaku not a poser one of course.And i'm glad that i have one added on my friend list which is otaku other than Dalilah, and my old friend Izyuandi. I've read the whole Love Monster.The storyline is sooo great eventhough it have a hentai scene.But at least,the guy is supeeeerrr Hooooottt!!Eventhough it has many fantasy in it,but it's so great how much the demon king wnt to save his lover which is white crow.ahhh~~sudeki.But how much i think,there will no shoujo like story in my life ,isn it? This is just my fate.
Owh well,i think i've talked a lot right now.Jane.
My situation now is totally blank.My life now is totally lifeless.I mean,i sleep and i eat and i sleep again and i online,and i anime-ing and so on repeating all this stuff.I want something new,something challenging.But all i can see is the repeated dull life.Yeah,same goes if i go to school.Totally damn boring.To think of it,i see everyone have boyfriends,i mean i dont feel that kind of feeling.And that doesnt mean i want.I mean is whats the point if they couple but has no true love inside it.They are just want to show off how fashionable or good looking the boyfriend is to the people.I'm not trying to jiwang or whtever.But,why?there's no point.And why those people want so much attention?Why these people always care about their image?And why those people dont have any--Ahh!forget about it.But i seriously dont get with them.Especially people on myspace.They have aching my eyes nowadays.
And me?Everyday and every single time,i was been tortured.My parents nagging about problems and house and and many other adult problem.And also nagging at me for being lifeless. What do you expect?I dont have nothing to do with these bloody-hell holiday.My father is busy with work.And my mother always cuddly-cuddly-ing wafi and busy with her decoration and also busy naggig at me.Kaktin is busy with her medic college and sometimes swept me from my room which is her room too to study.Yat busy with her xbox and playing with her stupid cousin himself.Whaddya expect?And me ;everyday open myspace eventhough i didnt like and lmost vomited from seeing the sickening people in it.And drooled over bishonens who is more handsome than the goat-face guy who's perasan that he's hot in myspace.Huuuuu~reality reality.Eat shit and die ok,for the guy i mentioned before.
I've watched Nodame Cantabile the drama version.Afterall,i want it so much to enter music school myself.I've requested from mama,and mama raised her voice saying that's work is not gonna pay my living expenses when i grow up.And she says its only gonna waste time and asked me to study until finish high school.I mean that is my only dream and only what i'm capable of.Science and mathematics?i'm just sucks at it.No ones understand me,no one and no one. ;sigh.
And yeah im listening to the honey and clover to soothing my mad mind right now.
Reality is really harsh nee,Raito-kun?(nevr mind me;i''m fatasizing again)
i woke up facing my anime posters on the wall next to my bed and knowingly it's already 5pm."oh my gosh",that's what i first said.I would be dead because i left zohor.My head spinning and my body felt heavy,i deserve it for staying out late.I quickly go to the bathroom with my hair bed.And there was a mirror and i saw my eyebags getting bigger.I deserve this,i said it again and again.And thus,i sigh.
In the night,i argued with my brother.He always assumed me and mama always by his side.And i thought that was unfair.Why do i have to respect him,i thought.He started the arguiment though.Thisis unfair.Yeah,i admit i was a bit egoish.My mom has her 'anak emas' which is wafi.And abah got his too which is yat.And me?I'm independent including my sister.So like i dont hell care.What that supposed to be my business?
And anyway,there was this guy adding me.I approved him,after all.I dont even know him though.And he greet me saying that he attract by my interest.So i was like ..ok.He says she likes poems.And he suddenly put me in his top friends though he has tons of frien list.Weird,isnt it.I don't mind if he wants to know me.
I'm currently waiting for my hana yori dango to stream.Duuhhh~it troubles me a lot. And i'm reading special A.
And one word.I think one of my friends has mentioned about which i forget who.But,i really didnt like a person who is photographer-wannabe's.and yes,i didnt like the people in myspace who seek attentioncy by editing their picture to look sexy,cute,handsome or whatever but in the fact they are not.So i advise you all that dont get too 'perasan' .I really fuckin hate that.And i think i should delete my acc cuz too meluat from seeing a myspac users has a big amount of them has become like that and me;i dont like to labelled the same as them.So shut the hell up :D.
Hello.I've already got my guitar electric!!I'm so happy like hell!Thanks to abah,he buy it for me eventhough i always fought with him.Domou arigato.It's black in colour with amplifier.It is second hand so its pretty cheap.The price is 450.Many says its cheap.I relieved cuz i didnt buy the plug in guitar.Its expensive and not worth.So,yeah.I'm pretty happy with it.Today is Raya Aidiladha.This morning i sleep at 7 and aida call me to see the cow but i slept.Sorry.I didnt pray raya also.Silly me.
I stay late watching 14 Sai No Haha.The story tells about a 14 year old girl who's pregnant and decide to born the child.When i watch the story i was like whooo.14 years old?!she's around my age.The actor is Shida Mirai who's acted at Seigi No Mikata.When she acted the 14 sai no haha drama she's 13 only.But she can acted many various of feeling.Impressive.She's so young,this year she's only 15 but she has acte many drama.Haruma Miura also acted at the drama.Kakkoii!!Seriusly,he looks innocent at that drama.But at the Koizora film,he is more handsome~~.Aida agreed with me cuz he looks a bit of Kim Jaejeoong.Haha.He also acted at Bloody Monday which i started to like.
Hisashiburi minna-san~.Hontou ni gomen because i did not update for so long.Many things happen and so i will go through all the day that i didnt update.So be prepared because its gonna be long.
22/11;Reunion 6k is held at Sunway Pyramid so i went with Dalilah and tumpang Azmina and Hus.Eunice and Ili also tumpang them.Arrived at the place and go to TGV to confirm ticket and thus went to KFC to meet people.At first i was like dont know what to do and talk because i'mnot so close with them especially with the 6M.So,i saw Aizat and asked about Aida because she didnt arrive yet since Aida said that he will tumpang her.And suddenly he glare sharply at me.He is weird -.-'.So after a minute Aida came with Nik.I miss her damn so much!.And then we stroll along because the movie the movie is at 1.30.I go to Music shop to but strings and go to animetech to buy mokona keychain.The movie?I can say it's so hell boring.I leave the place at 8.30.My money have finish because i buy many sort of thing.And 'someone' who used to be my friend is so damn annoying,she thinks she's so good enough.I didnt like her.
Another event is when Kaktin graduate at UITM Shah Alam.I went there because mama asked me to go to.It was so hot.I regret coming that place.At first i can enter the hall,but then when i return back from toilet i was blocked by the guard.Stupid guard!I have to wait at outside and unluckly i dont bring my handphone along.Luckly,mama went searching for me because i did not return . At the night,i went to Por Dickson.I sta there for a night because Abah have duty and he got an extra room.But i didnt go nowhere because have to rush to Wafi's place.And my family went to take a family picture which i may look horrible and fat.
Dalilah SMS me.She told me that she have a problem.I hope she's ok.I understand with her family problem.She can always tells her problem to me. AndIzzat call me,asked me and Aida to go out to watch Twilight.But we didnt have money so it was cancelled.But then,Kaktin asked me to go watch the movie with me and with her boyfriend.But for soe reason i felt like i was so menyibuk.But who cares,i want to watch that story so bad.Perhaps i should asked aida along?Hmmm.
Yat got his Xbox,it was so unfair that he used my parents money.So my father asked what i want.I said i want a guitar electric so he said i will get one.But the amount of weight and the amp price is high.It was not worth it because without an amp i cant play it.So mama said instead of that its better to go to a class guitar.I didnt know wht to pick.
Wafi are going to Prom Night Smk Sri Permata.My neighbour who in the same school as mine asked him to go to.Do anything he want.I dont care,cause i'm so not into that kind of thing.
I've got obsess with Guitar Hero,lately.And also i started to interested with Younha ; a Korean and Japanese arttist.And also I've got obsess to anime Bleach.I saw the anime at Remaja @ tv3 and they talk about anime,cosplay and other things that i might like but i didnt get to watch the whole program.Mattaakuu~~ -.-.I didnt expect for malaysian to concern about anime.Usually when they hear anime they will say "enemy?".Teemee!
He cut his bang in this picture.Awww~why my dear moon chul?You look cute with the bang,though.Haaiish.
He's with glasses.Aaarghh~i'm going to faint.
This picture really look like Kira@Yagami Raito.He should be cosplaying for kira.I like this picture.
