"and so the lion felt in love with the lamb"

Many thing happens.I fought with someone,teacher asking me to play guitar ,and i'm going to camp for the first time in my life.

Pffft.I know for all normal people would felt that this is plainly ordinary.Well,for me big deal what it takes.I fought with Amirah,because she doesnt satisfied with me so close with Aini.Well,either me too,i dont satisfied with her with that annoying attitude.And Aini is soo bluur,sometimes i fed up with her because she's too naive.
Eventhough,she did talk to me like always,but me,i still have the fire inside my heart.Beware,if i hate someone,i will hate her like forever i could last.

Second,it was a normal literature day where i have to learn all the Phantom Of The Opera,and suddenlyteacher ask who can play guitar.I was quiet then,cuz i dont want to look like i was a show off.But my classmate already knew since last year party class and they called my name.I'm not good enough actually,i seriously can;t do classical.Not conquer all the lead style yet.Can;t read music alphabetical,can't read tabs.I'm not a pro!Wht do you expect,i'm not a rich kid to go to Yamaha Music.I learned by own.Duuh.
I was curious then,i asked teacher and she said she will tell later.Besides,i'm a public phobia,i get all nervous like hell and stuttered everywhere.I dont think i can do,but this is a lifetime chance.If i use it,i know i will experience how to perform in front of reaal public.

Third,My camp is just like the day after tomorrow.3 days ,2 night.Not to mention that i cant really sleep at night.I'm a half vampire,you see.Haaaha,joke.And then,i already passed up the money and the registration form and all that.So no way out except just to go.For the first time in my life though except for 2 days and 1 night at apartment at Cameron Highlad school trip when i was 12.And after that,i got fever who appear 2/3 years once.Ridiculous.

So then,i think i will concentrate my exam after the camp was finish.I hope teacher's plan will success,and just hope that i can read Twilight until Edward and Bella got married and has a child with happy endings.*clap*clap*.Puuuh,talk about Twilight,i was really dissapointed to not raised hand properly when the question of the Twilight author in the assembly.Got answered from this Form 1 student,that i really dont like.Omgee,just because the series is hell famous,why do all my dislike people will like.Ohhh.And i dont want to be one of them anyway,because i really dont like Edward in the movie,i just fell in love with him in the book.Closed topic.It's already like 4 in the morning.I dont finish up my homework and i didnt pray yet.I suddenly felt so heavy just to planned wht i'm gonna do next.Lazyness took all over me.

KHAIRUNNISA.

blood really taste that salty ?

So,my sunday went pretty boring.I guess i shouldnt have told from the moment i woke today.I am really into Twilight now.Yeah,i know,i know ,you might get sick because of my fangirlism.But who cares?I've been a vampire fan from last year before i knew twilight though.So wht?I'm really annoyed for people pointiong me as "Twilight fan girl" cuz i felt i've been stereotyped.Hmm,whtever.I got to collect my saving because i've got scolded just because i asked mama for 10 ringgit.Yeaah,my family is not that rich,i've only asked for 10 bucks and i get scolded,for they can ask for more than 100 and not get scolded.This is pretty much unfair.

My lips are bleed because its too dry and i stretch it,so it got bleed.And of course the blood would drop in my mouth.And it really taste salty like almost sweat,but at the same time it taste like iron,so thick.I dont like at all,i thought i've would like it.Haha,just kidding.I wonder why all those vampire would like this kind of thing since it's so yuck.Well,it is superstition of course.But there still some dumb obsesser that admit themselves a vampire eventhough they look old.Vampire dont get old,remember?Duhhh~

I think i would get this topic closed for today.

KHAIRUNNISA.

aarghhh,save me anyone?

My purse is empty,completely.I just brought Twilight novel ,cheap enough to finishing up my pocket money.But,it's worth after all cuz the story is awesomee!I know,because lots of people especially girls saying these.But i had to admit,the story is damn great and Edward Cullen is damn hot enough to melt me.I didnt finished though,what do you expect from a 400 ++ pages.

So today,i didnt attend Taekwando again because i intend to quit it for some moving reason.My house had some new problem,my mom intend to change room and make chaos in my house.This one didnt agreed ,that one didnt agreed and cause an argue.Well,abah and wafi did argue in early in the morning.And i had to share room with my grandma for a month.I didnt mind much cuz i already out of this house soon

Today i just went to some Music Clinic.My sister and i got lost and at last finally found that place.I asked kaktin to accompanied me cuz my fiend who supposed to accompanied me is nowhere to be seen.And to killed that guiltness for my sister i treat her McD,though i'm supposed to boiccot it,and my savings went little that i sighed.I saw musicians performed ,it's great but a little well bored for some reason.But i'm fascinated for their talent,and i heard this acoustic competition in June at Subang Parade i wanted to join though.But i already in malacca that time.Huuuh.

School went pretty well.I'm just quite the same,and i got misundertstanding and it all settled.Exams coming in 3 weeks,i havent studied at all,and even more complicating i dont understand some topics.Hmmm.Ahh,if only i can break free and live a total free life.Travelling to see green things while street performing with walking around my guitar,trying different things.Why god?I've been living like a doll,controlled by unknown power who keeps me struggling.I'm really want to live with my own.
Ahhh.Why this feeling overwhelmed me so suddenly?I felt so lonely after seeing someone had happiness ,and i'm not.Well,i dont mind cuz everybody that i used to close with is separated and had their own life.And of course they will eventually had a new friend and a new happiness.But,i felt miserable.Ohh god,please immediately stop this ridiculous feeling?And it's more sadden me that i will be moving and probably gave me a great miserable in my life.I hate this.

KHAIRUNNISA

sleepy,dreaamy.

Go to school with sleepy mood,i sleep at 7 am.So what do you expect?I'm a vampire :D
And i sleep in class in BM time.It was hell boring until teacher recognize me sleeping.Pn Yong do teach a lot,my head go round and round because of the ratio.I saw Shen huan with sweater,pretty cool.But i hate him in liking him.Shiit.So yesterday,i watched this reality korean programe called Star King where DBSK attend to it,and got this girls rock band.They sucks like ass,i hate the vocalist but i pretty much like at the drummer,cuz she's cute.They're only 10-12 years.But the vocalist dont know to behave and said she doesnt like DBSK,shut the fuck up.You pretty much loser posers.Sohai.I'm still deciding my future school.

KHAIRUNNISA.

prejudice.

I make it short.

Nothing particularly,going through my day like usual.And needless to say that aida and anis keep talking about MatD.Haha.I guess you guys really like him,ehh?Yesterday sleeping late because obsessesd by this Itazura na kiss,i'm watching the anime,manga,live action taiwanese and japanese at the same time.wooah.Not to mention midterm-exams is around the corner.I'm dead meat.Mama have been asking me where school i want to Melaka.And she suggested me to go Convent Girls School.Sounds scary to me,because i hate smart school because it makes me feel stupid for some reason.
Simon,simon.I dont hell care care about him anymore either Shen huann.Blaah----.Somehow,i felt envy with the people that they have what i dont have.

KHAIRUNNISA.

I'm feeling blank.

Yesterday got temasya sukan.Boring like hell.I saw shen huan many times but as usual i failed to talked to him.I guess he didnt recognized me because i dont wear tudung at that time.He ran really fast.Got first or two,i dont know and after he ran he go to this girl,i think his girlfriend ,and asked her a water.And at the same time,i was drinking a water and i imagine that he goes to me and grabbed my water and drink at the bottle i just drank.Yeah right,it's not gonna happened,oh no.And shocking news,i saw simon sitting with a girl lovey-dovey at outside school.Oh shit!I felt regret coming to this heart breaking day.I'm not participated also,waste of time.Lucky aini accompany me all day long.I'm really always with her at school.

Today actually got taekwando,but i didnt go.And my test for taekwando is next week but got to pay 135 for the next next month,but i already gone at tht time..to Melaka.I'm sorry i have to leave.And i have to stuck at the perumahan askar.Go to school with my father's driver;also soldiers.go to the schoot exactly in that perumahan.Boringlaaa!i will miss aida,and i'm afraid she will be lonely.And Aini too,i will be damned miss her,she's like my lesbian partner.Haha,my classmate cal us lebian cuz we're all the time and sometimes she pretend to kiss me.Cuz she likes girls more than boys.Ohoho,shojo-ai.

My family is like usual.Wafi got interviewed.Mama busy with her school work.Kaktin still on her medic class.I'm like this always.And yat,he's just him.And my grandma,always and always favor indonesians film,sometimes i cant even touch the remote control.
And i just finish chatting with Azrul,my chatting friend.Talking like usual,anime and YUI.And he's got a girlfriend already,good luck with your relationship.

I found this blog.YUI's blog,for god sake!!But i dont understand japanese after all.Haaish.It will be good if i can read japanese.
http://playlog.jp/yuidiary/blog/
And i'm not on-air in anime yet,cuz too busy with school.And i dont really know what anime will suit my taste.

Got to signing out.

Koreaan obsessioan,much?

I went to school today.The first thing i heard from Aini is --Korean boyband.Haha,can you believe it?Yeah,she talked a lot about korean,almost 24 hour.Well,i dont mind.Seriously.But i went blank went she said those stuff,because i didnt really know the updates,but i do hear their songs though.They rock my socks with their looks.Bishonen reunite!But i do think that Aini and Aida can be together,fangirlism terserlah.Well,i'm no exceptions,i crazed for them too.Seriously,i'm so into Super Junior lately.Omoo!I love Heechul oppa and Lee Teuk oppa.They are damn cute.

Enough with fangirl world.Let's talked about today.

As usual,teachers dont really came because busy with marching ,sports stuff.Well,someone called bintang member and they dont have enough people for the marching.I'm not sure if i have to go or not.If i go,then i will meet him and at least say hi to him.At the same time,i dont feel worth because i sacrified myself just to say this one word;hi to him.I mean i have to endure the hot sun,and my skin will be sunburn just to say hi.Am i worth for that?And i'll tell you what,i dont have any friends to talk to on practice,because i can't hope for Akma.She's in different world as mine.She is,eventhough i always talked to her.I'm not a socialize-type.And that's it,simple as that.So what am i gonna do?But i can still go for soprts day because i have to go for my attendance.I'll try to asked aida come along since people outside can go along.And the marching is kinda stupid to me,the theme is ghost stuff.And i have to do zombie and said "otak,otak".Nuisance,right?I dont really know if i will join or not.

So teacher didnt enter for Sciene and there was this teacher,a counselor i can tell.Since there was not many people,less that 15 soshe go to us;me and aini.And she just asked where i am from etc.And i cant believe she counselling me.Yeah,i do said that my eduacation is merosot.What do you expect,i've got B all over and there was no single A's.And she show me to study smart and target what i can get.Well,she reads me.She knows what i'm thinking,as if she's a psychic.Ok whjatever,i dont know what to spell it,so what?.And there it is,i've been counselling for about 45 minutes.My mouth couldnt shut after that.Omooo.Well at least i've learned some lesson,i think i will be studying as soon as i can.

Chiaw.My eyes cant hold anymore.

Forgotten photos.

Yeah,and one more thing,i dont think i already put this picture.Well,i was supposed to put it long ago.But i forgot.The first one is the perfect among the two,for me.And i think someone compliment me at myspace.Well,first time in my life ever people commenting me like that.And for those who don't know,i'm with the white hat.The another one with the spec is Aida.and another without it is aida's sister;Anis.

yui's new song.

I woke up at 3 in evening and got scolded right away because i dont help anything with house core.My grandma is in hospital for some reason,and my maid is away with her.So i dont have anyone to handle my house.Mama been babbling babbling because she not used to without a maid.Urghh,this sucks.I mean,i dont mind at all, but my mom attitude is just like that.Bossing around and there.Sometimes i cant stand it.Intend to eat ,but the food got expired.And my mum dont even cook.I got stressed so i go out with Aida.

Go to mini market and buy junk food.I have to eat junk food because of stupid reason happen at my house.And in the end,i got fat.I am fat now,49 kg.I have to lower that before i go 50.Continue the story,unfortunately it's raining but we dont care.We even talked in the rain and walk slowly.We're soaking wet though.It's fun to do crazy stuff sometimes.And i invite Aida to my house.Talked for an hour,well best friend talk,i can say.I'm sorry,i just copy aida's blog after all.Cuz i dont know what to say anyhow.Yeah,i will be missing like hell when i moving soon.Shit,i cant fixed the fact anymore ,somehow.

YUI's got new song titled Again.ost for anime fullmetal alchemist.



I dont know what to say anymore.Mama gave me mc because i wanted to.Actually,i'm just joking and she freely insisted me because there was no one to serve food and do my thing.Well,you must thinking that i'm acting like i'm not used to without a maid to handle me.Yes,i'm afraid i grew that way since i was borned.But i'm not a spoil little brat,at least i know some living skills.Duhh~

Signing out.

143.

I'm on process to finish Boys Before Flower.Got 2 episodes left.I already know what the ending though,because i already watched the japanese one.Lee min ho,i love your smile really really much.He melts me like an ice.Ohoho,and not to mention Hyung Joong that totally make my heart like a bomb.Why the hell people like them rarely exist at Malaysia.Whylaa---

I got news from Aida.She called me and said" icha,aku boring".And then she said her crush , Ho Kien Xin,got rompak in front of my mom school;which aida's school as well.I already heard it from mama before that,and i thought ohh rompak2 nie,commonlaa.And i didnt expext at all it will be aida's crush.I felt sorry for him.

Hmm,i got late for school today.And Pn Yong scolded my class for not finish homework.On BM time,i didnt finish Laporan at all.Gaah,i hate it.I dont have any idea what to participate on Sports Day.Damnlaa.At first,i wanted to enter my rumah sukan.But,i get lonely because i dont have friends to join at all.Well,there's akma.But,you know her,she have many popular friends.i'm not suited with them.But if i dont go to sports day,i dont get to see Shen Huan on action.I'm soo sure he will enter any of the larian.Well,i think i just go with intention for just my presence because teacher will tick ponteng if i didnt go.

Aida asked me to go her sports day tomorrow.Then,i'll just go just to accompany her if she would.Not much for today,i still can't forget that day incident.Goosh,you dont know how nervous i am at that time.But dont forget,he has a girlfriend,so what am i hoping for anyway for god sake?!Dammnn you.Ahh,and that guy that i nickname simon,he is well kinda racist.Cuz i have heard from akma,that her friend who is in the same class as her try to talk to him.But he didnt reply.Well,what do you expect?Want me to go change my bangsa in my IC or what?Goosh.

I showed mama i'm playing Dan Sebenarnya and she liked it.She want to send me to class guitar at Melaka.I hope it's not working like last time,worthless promising.The song,i kinda liked it but it about l-o-v-e.Duuuhh,it's kinda annoyed me because it's the same situation as mine.Why do everything concern me?Faggot shit.

Singing out.Singing laa pulak.Signing out at 4.30 am.

love,love,love...killing me softly.

I had a great dissapoinment today.Actually my art teacher have to be refree for Bola Baling,and i have to go down.And guess wht?I saw Shen Huan.I have to stuck in there like almost an hour.And guess wht happen?My classmate told him,and he actually look at me.OMG!And i dont know what to say anymore.I was being force by my friend to talk to him,and my friend call his name and he just ... stand there and just waiting what i want to say,but my mouth couldnt said a word.And there,i just lost a chance.But i felt very very nervous,my cheeks are going to burned because i'm extremely shy.But he just look at my clumsy self and doesnt said a word.I felt embrassed.But why do he looks me,anyway.and at that time,he joins my classmate hear what teachers said.I was like,uhh?And my classmate,called me like "Icha,icha shen huanlaa",i mean that makes him more like perasan,i think.Right,goshh.And i dont even know what the boys said to him.Shitlaa.Shit to me also.And when,he looks me i dont say a word,and he just go to this girl and take her back.Wo Ai Hen Ni,Shen Huann!!!I just hate myself from liking you.And i just hate this dumb nervous feeling.

Schools are going normal normal.My mind flew while i was studying.I think so much,about the moving,about my crushed.Everything stuck in my head.Just why is my life like this?My greds are decreasing.I became so lazy and lost confidence.I felt very inferioty complex.I just hate this feeling.I just hate falling in love.And i also think so much about my future,what am i gonna be,who will i married to.With my exams result,am i gonna live?I know,playing guitar while sings a song can't make a living.But why is the reality so harsh?I just wanted to do wht i want to do,but why i can't?

Mama said,in Melaka diperwajibkan wearing a tudung.And all in morning session.And majority is malay.I hate this all.I dont want to move.I dont want to move.I always said that but my mom scolded me.Fucking laa!Tiu!(curse word for chinese)

I think i want to stop this.And yeah,another thing,i've watched aida's video.Korean guy pair up with malay gurl?Is this true?Wow,i didnt know.Well,i know how's the feeling when we cant be with korean or japanese guy.Chill out,Aida. Soon,you will meet someone :D





Signing out.

i need bishonen guy.

Nothing much today,
i didnt go to Taekwando today cuz i woke up late.Actually,i do want to go,and when i arrive school i forgot my white belt,and i havent eat anything.Abah scolded and lecture me,so i didnt go.

I sleep a lot at evening,but i dont know i get sleepy quickly.My weight in increasing to 49 gosh,i really am that fat.I need to lighten up my weight at least 3 kg.Well,i planned to replace my puasa next week for 7 to 8 days.
So,i didnt do much today.I always thought,how is my life when i move to Melaka in nest 2 months.Mama is already busy about her pertukaran sekolah.This worried me very much.I didnt want to leave,after all.

Yesterday,i accidently sprayed water at Amirah.And she was really mad.At that time,i tried resist my laugh,but i just accidently sprayed at her.Accidently,i meant that.I wasnt done it at purpose.My classmates tell jokes and i just cant resist to laugh.I sometimes hated Amirah.But i dont actually admit it,because Aini is on her side.Always on her side,it's kinda annoyed me for some reason.
My class won 2nd place for Choral Speaking.I really dont mind winning anything,i just dont care.

Goshh i kinda hated for me to being me.Okay first,i got bad news tht shen huan already have a girlfriends.And second,i will be moving to a village area.And three,i have to leave my best best friend.And four,there's not much lencai at the school i'm sitting soon.And four,there's a lot type of people that i really hated for my school i'm sitting soon.

How suck is that?Yeah,yeah.To tell you the truth,i've never,NEVER talked to any guy i liked before,nor i have been coupling to them.sigh.This kinda vain,after all i'm just fantasizing all the time,really.

Signing out.

WHYYlaaa----??!

Guess wht?

Shen Huann did have a girlfriend.Fuck---

And the girl name's is Yee Von.I already checked her at my school's magazine.And i can't deny that she is cute.Well,i think Lee Yong lok have liked her.But,i dont want to be bothered,cuz in 2 months i will be moving .Last 2 days,it's i dont know whts wrong with shenn huan,he just like smile and i dont know when i near him.And i was like uhhh,and i think he wants me to notice him which i dont know why.Hello!you have your girlfriend why you're bothered with secret admirer like me?I tried to forget you,okayh.

I entered choral speaking,and the text is hell long.And the contest is for tomorrow for god sake.And i dont memorize a single word.Great just great.
Btw,i dont see him lately,i mean my stranger friend.I do miss talking to him,i just always sleep a lot at night lately.

School was going okay lately.I just hate kids nowadays,they're just annoying.Especially little kids in my bus,whenever i buy something they will merengek to want some.I just want to kick their butt.Aini non-stop talking about Big Bang.Ding!another korean obsession.And i'm addicted to Sorry Sorry -Super junior lately,especially royal pirates remake.Moonchul so handsome! XD
Okayh,so today i turned Channel [v],and i found out this guy name Jamie Scott.Gosh,he's voice so lazat,and he played guitar.And not to mention,gorgeous.

I dont have a lot to say anymore.I just fantasizing that i would go out with shen huan before i moving out,and aida suruh me. But,i think it's impossible ,i didnt even talked to him once.What do you expect?But i just tried my hardest,ki collect my guts and asked him.If he's say no,then i just take that as rejection.

Well then.