I guess cramming my throat for explanations is worthless, when you beholds the ego all in your mind . Maybe the ties between us isnt that strong as I expected when your faith just faded away.
Fitting in with some social cults are not easy as what I pictured , it sucks. I appreciate the people who does notice me smiling my cheek out, but no I can dig your eyeball out and make a soup and give the cats in the street to eat if you look me up and down.
So my play-girl looks totally deceived so many people, I'm still a virgin in love.No history of exs or boyfriends at all. Sad, I know.

"I don't want what you want , I don't feel what you feel"

I swear I'm gonna bitch-slap people who judge me. I don't give a flying fuck this time.

JC.

I hope it's not too late to wish him Happy Birthday , the greatest man was born 33 years back. Lol okay I'm actually obsessed with a guy who is over 30 and have a wife and a kid.But I somehow believe that there is another "Julian Casablancas" that's existed just for me either in heaven or in the reality.

As I wanted to throw myself in this imaginary-literary world , I've been using the same word to accesorized my statement. It's such a disgrace sometimes. It's obvious I didnt really read lately.

My language is sometimes very obscene , it is not something that I do to empower people or anything.Well , sometimes people do that to authorized people's attention on how cool they are to swear and shits.But well, it's pretty hard to explain on why my language is too obscene sometimes. The end.

we all are actors.

I wanted to experience a youthful night. Withsome great people hanging around to fill the time which obviously pouring with such intense.A crowd which are drowning into the music noise , exhilarating sounds fills all night.Energy bursting wildly , screeching it's intensity into the air.Fear and boundaries are just defitionless that time.

But life has boundaries after all..

utopia trauma

Decomposing the innumerable sins in Ramadhan , maybe it will take a thousand years if I'm too ignorance.

My imaginations are wild nowadays, beyond boundaries. I'm afraid of my thoughts sometimes , they are too .. bold.

If I'll fall in love, there will be apocalypse.I'm an extremist towards my emotions. It's hard to get to the surface with a flick of insanity like this.

10 days.

I shouldnt complain , as I admit this stage of life is pretty cozy.But high school is an apocalypse sometimes . Especially when you meet the same old shit and the same circle of friends everyday. You're perceptions will never change , so as you're shallow immature mind.I can't wait to end high school , and meet an idealist type of people not just people who make blunt statements.

But on the bright side, it's actually pretty challenging and uncomfortably exaggeratedly fun.

Loving a band with all your heart is something you only understand when it happens to you.

On the surface, others can see it as a petty obsession, but they’ll just never know the feeling of putting so much faith into a few people on the other side of the world. It’s hard to explain it to them, the listening to song after song on repeat, the waits for new albums, the excitement and surreal sensation when you finally see them live. They don’t seem to understand why the lyrics booklets give you a sense of comfort, or why you paste photos of them all over your bedroom walls. And they can’t understand why one band could matter to you so much. And you think to yourself ’Because they saved my life.’ But you say nothing, they wouldn’t understand.

- Alex Gaskarth

crying lightning.

Hi.

ok bye.

The ground is a magnet , I can't get to my own feet