Please close your eyes
'Cause I don't want to face the road
Or impose, disguise
Memories I couldn't run through

I can see the red light glowing through the windscreen
And water where it rained harder
Now the clouds are stunning

I am lost, in an ocean.
Far away from home.

Carry me, across the sea.
To a place I've known.

And i don't like it here anymore.
No i don't like it here, anymore. Anymore.

Lock me in, close the door.
Oxygen, falls apart.
Spiders crawl, Mountains fall.
Every evening sirens call.

And i don't like it here anymore.
No i don't like it here, anymore. Anymore.

The sounds of winds sighing through every edges of the leaves,and a shimmering rain tapping on the rooftop calmed me.Typically,im with my guitar that somehow attached to my body,and singing in such a low tone,like almost a whisper.Eventhough behind these walls,there's a human arguing and fighting.

Hmm,i don't understand you seriously.I wanted for your companion,your voices,your strength.But what did i received?Just dust.

Ouch.My finger is soring red,as i practised too much for 4 hour straight.I can't get this right,this little tabs thingy,i wonder why my guitar teacher can just played it even he never heard of the song.efff.But then i succesfully can play 1/4 of La Romanesca.I get interested in classical.
Ah,this week im kind of free and not so many homework to do.Because sport day is tomorrow,and i dont participated at all.Yup,typical me.

I've got no creativity to write a poetic post and i dont have the mood,because rain dont usually came,im somewhat lonely it didnt.Till then.

Shadows all around you as you surface from the dark
Emerging from the gentle grip of night's unfolding arms
Darkness, darkness everywhere, do you feel all alone?
The subtle grace of gravity, the heavy weight of stone

You don't see what you possess, a beauty calm and clear
It floods the sky and blurs the darkness like a chandelier
All the light that you possess is skewed by lakes and seas
The shattered surface, so imperfect, is all that you believe

I will bring a mirror, so silver, so exact
So precise and so pristine, a perfect pane of glass
I will set the mirror up to face the blackened sky
You will see your beauty every moment that you rise

tired tears,

I gripped my hand,as the tears fall dropping the keyboard that im currenty typing now.While hearing the song to it's fullest volume.I'm tired of this tears that dropped continously.I need for human voice or at least would asked me and whisper to me that i'll be okay.I'm weak as a harmless ant,that people would just stepped on it.I'm unnoticeable or just plain lonely like a thin air or a big tree but doesnt appear in people's sight,still like a breathless statue.

I'm tired to carry this vulnerable feeling,it would have been so much better if this stale emotion could just dissapear without a word.

I can't help showing this sides of me,im sorry.It burden me and smoldering me.The thoughts killing me.I flooded myself in tears ,trying to fight the loneliness and the life that swings up and down.My faith has already step on broken glass,im trying to rebuilt it again.Pretend to be strong.It was just a dissimulation .
This feeling chasing me every steps that i take,every state of mind i thought,every breath i inhaled.

Oh god,i don't know what to do anymore.